Omnipresent

A birthday is an affirmation of life.
An active, conscious acknowledgement
and thanking of God for the mercy he showed
in allowing you to be, though ever so fleeting.
Ever-present

Momma says Little-Brother Big-Tree saw you today.
You perched next to him as he dealt with a test.
Every time he began to let the devil win you sang.
Sang a quick song that he says would always calm him.
Always present.

I can only imagine what this conversation was like.
"Boy, what's wrong with you?" you chirped.
And no matter what his response you had answer ready.
"Why are you letting it get to you? It really don't matter."
Presently correct.

I speak of you now and every day in the present tense.
Because I cannot, and will not ever be whole without you.
You see I need you ... the thought of you looking down on me ...
I need this just to make it through each day.
Presently teary eyed.

We all try to go on with our days, with our lives without you.
But there is no rhyme, there is no reason. There is just discord.
There is no hue, there is no color. There is just grey.
You are our family's smile. And missing you casts a shadow.

But loving you is a beacon.
It shows me the way back. Back to life, back to family, back to love.
The present of your presence has me presently humbled.
He is omnipresent. And because of this you are always here, with me.

I Love you Tus,
Brother