Wandering and Wondering (Part 3)

(Last one. Make sure you read Parts 1 & 2 first.)

Today is the day most celebrate the birth of Christ. I can't help but reflect on the fact that Jesus needed to be sent in the first place. We all needed someone to pay the debt of our sinful ways. Basically, we are not perfect and we all need help. Think about that for a moment, we ALL need help.

I will go further with that idea and say God also understands that we need patience and understanding. I think it wise if I put into practice these same ideals. And not just with her, with most people in my life. But back to her.

I think it is obvious to most I still have deep feelings for her. And while I have agreed to give her space while she sorts things out, every so often I have an eruption of emotions, like today.  I guess it's just because of the holiday. (I just hope if she reads part 2 she isn't mad with me. If read out of context it might be taken the wrong way.)

I realize when relationships struggle and/or end there is enough blame to go around. As the old saying goes: "There are always three sides to every story. One side, the other side and the truth." I have asked God to put tempered expectations, better listening ears and a second helping of courage in my Christmas stocking, what about you? Am I the only one that thinks the emotion of love was a creation of the devil to torment man? I digress.

I guess what I'm saying as I wrap up this three part open love letter is that I have opened my ears and my heart ... and I am listening. I do not like what I hear all the time. And my position has not changed much (stubborn, I know), but I am listening. Through God all things are possible, right?

We shall see.